Update November 08, 2024

Progress on the migraines?  On the depression?  On the computer?  

Another 4 Years

I'm probably a little too close to this, but I feel like I have to put these whirlwind thoughts into some kind of order.  

Update October 21, 2024

Depression is getting better.  

Depression

Depression is a technical, psychological, medical diagnosis.  Therefore I as a person and I as a nurse cannot state that I am experiencing Depression.  That being said, having worked as a nurse specifically in several psychological areas and having dealt with the differences of diagnosing someone with depression vs having them be sad or grieving or mourning, I'm fairly comfortable stating:

I am depressed.  Severely depressed.  

Update September 30, 2024

The days are getting darker.  Both philosophically and physically.  

Update September 17, 2024

Life, life, life, life, and not much else.  

Update September 04, 2024

Did anything big happen over the past couple weeks?

Layla, I'm begging, darling, please.

You know it's just your foolish pride.

Tiffany's milky endgame

We're just about done with this part

Why is this still going on?

Seriously, why? 

Tiffany is dead

I really did want to keep her longer.  

I almost certainly killed Tiffany

SIXTEEN THOUSAND FUCKING DOLLARS!

I might have killed Tiffany!

Spilled milk might cost me real money for Tiffany!

Update August 15, 2024

A whole lot of nothing.

Gamer Gurl Part II Part 2?

Three weeks for the first third!

AI generated Images

Images, text, video, AI, machine learning.... let's chat. 

Update August 02, 2024

Everything sucks.  

Gamer Gurl Part II

I'm getting back onto the horse! 

Update July 19, 2024

Writing sucks.  

It's A Man's World - Done and Published!

I'm going to have to give this some time

Paying for Porn

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Update July 03, 2024

A couple meh weeks, but probably still worth keeping up on these updates.  

My first trip to the ER

I don't believe many people can escape having to visit the emergency room during their lifespan.  At 50 years old though, I had a pretty good run going, especially with as bad as my migraines have been, and I was hoping I'd get into my 60s or 70s with no need of an ER trip.  Whelp... that's done! 

Update June 18, 2024

A lot happened since my last update, but I've also had five posts since then!

Dommy Mommy Problems

Yeah, who would have thought that thinking about a story for two weeks and really getting into it would cause a problem.  Come on in and let me explain.  

Writing Update

nullI've been away on vacation as I wrote about in my previous postprevious post, and haven't written a thing since May 10th.  But that's not to say writing hasn't been on my mind.  If you're interested, come inside and read about a tumblr idea I have, where I stand on It's A Man's World, on the next part of Gamer Gurl, and even thoughts I had on the secretary story I had going You're Not The Boss Of Me!

Now THAT was a Vacation!

I'm used to the normal 'This vacation was far too short' scenario after finishing a vacation.  I've also experienced the 'That was nice, but I'm ready to return to normal' variation.  I think this is the first time I've experienced the full range of feelings, from 'that was great' to 'that was a once in a lifetime experience' to 'I shouldn't have done this' and 'this sucks' on this vacation.  This is going to take some time to put right in my head, to re-live, and to parse out for you.  

Viva

That came together fast!  I have two kind of short or one long vacation coming up... this week! 

It's a Man's World - Final Stretch

The end is in sight!

Update May 12, 2024

Let's Switch it up! 

Update May 03, 2024

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Update April 20, 2024

I don't have anything specific to talk about, so this is more of an update because I haven't updated in awhile.  

It's a Man's World - Third Society

Writing has been tough as of late.  But as I take a step back and look at this through a longer lens, I think I'm doing fine.  Let me explain. 

Update April 06, 2024

Another small update.  Writing, finances, new tech.  

Update March 27, 2024

This is simultaneously a small and HUGE update.  Small, because not much has changed in the last nine days.  Huge, because what did change is incredibly important.  

It's a Man's World - Second Society

I'm currently 14 chapters in and really liking the story so far.  I have to admit though, this is by far the darkest story I've written.  As before, I have to give a warning as I'll not only be talking about the story so far, I'm going to be talking about where the story is going.  If you don't want to know what's going to happen then you'd best not read this post.  Still here?  Good!

Update March 18, 2024

Should be a quick update as not much has changed.  I just didn't want this getting out of hand and going over a month again.  

Impediments to Writing

There have always been things that have gotten in the way, but should I try to actively get past them now?  It's been floating through my head for a few weeks now, and I figure this is as good as time as any to think it through.  Or in this instance.... write it through.  

Update March 04, 2024

I'm not sure why I didn't do one for February, but here we go! 

Fetishizing Fetishes

Almost everybody that knows me here knows that I have a fetish.  Feminization.  But it goes way beyond that.  And let's face it, there are hundreds, thousands, hundreds of thousands, of fetishes.  I obviously can't talk about all of them, but I wanted to touch on the subject a bit as it's been playing around in my head.  This might be a wandering post, so be forewarned.  

It's A Man's World - Beginning a new project

I have to start this post with the same caveat that should come with all these 'behind the scenes' writing posts.  I'm going to write a bit about my process but I'm also going to be writing about the story itself.  This is, in a way, going to be far more planned than Gamer Gurl.  So, if you don't want to know about It's A Man's World story details before I write them out, this is your getting off point.  

Writing Questions

My mind is all a flutter.  Normally when I feel this way I can sit back, focus, and get through what's bothering me.  But today, I can't seem to get past these thoughts.  Maybe it's just because I have to many thoughts in mind, but maybe it's something else.  Anywho, I think I'll try writing this out and see if it helps.  

Car Shopping Again Part 6!

It's all but done.  I left you off in the last post with B wanting to go look at the Chevy Malibu Premier and if he couldn't work a deal, look at the Ford Fusion Energi SE Luxury.  Friday rolls around and he's out the door to the shitty Dodge dealership.  

Car Shopping Again Part 5!

About 4 years ago I had a 4 part series on shopping for my brother B's new car.  After much wrangling and dealing and shopping, we ended up getting B a 2014 Buick LaCrosse.  I'm actually kind of surprised as B has since replaced that car with some heavy help from me on the shopping front.  BUT, that newer car died and needs to be replaced, so let's jump back into this.  And fair warning, there will definitely be a part 6 as B doesn't have a car yet. 

Gamer Gurl: Origins

It's done and being published.  Whew!  

Counting Is Fun

I saw this over at Karrie's Korner, where Karrie is reposting Sara's old blog posts (she's up to around 2010 now).  So, you could either say I'm copying Karrie's work from yesterday or I'm copying Sara's work from 14 years ago.  Regardless, lets see if I can get through this without depressing myself.    

Update January 28, 2024

Let's just get into it. 

Continuing Gamer Gurl

I've just now posted chapter 34 of Gamer Gurl to CHYOA.  It's just over 82,000 words.   For comparison Just Dance was around 76,000 words and Thesis was around 41,000 words.  I've created a monster.  I haven't touched Your Not The Boss Of Me since November and right now have no plans to get back into that saddle.  Lemme explain.  

Being a College Football Fan

Per the Oxford English Dictionary: 'a keen follower of a specified hobby or amusement' and 'an enthusiast for a particular person or thing'

Update January 02, 2024

 It feels like a short four weeks and a long month, both at the same time.