I talked about Gamer Gurl having a vague direction. I'm going to get her comfortably streaming and either take the 'relationship' direction or the cam girl direction. And honestly, I think the relationship path would still go into a cam girl direction just a less overt XXX one. I think what I have now and maybe the next chapter or two could be considered the first part. Say, Gamer Gurl 1. I say that because it's Nick's transformation into Sadie the 'gurl' and their transformation into Princess BabyDoll the 'streamer'. I'm currently on a Friday night date where the story started on the previous Tuesday. I'm literally 11 days into this story!
My first general idea was to break it up into two parts. The parts would be set around the fall and winter semesters at school. But if I continued writing this much about each individual day, the story wouldn't just be a novel, it's be a group of them. An entire series of novels.
I should back up a bit and give a synopsis and some info on the characters. That way I don't have to constantly stop and re-hash this in bits and pieces.
Synopsis:
Nick is a college age streamer that has an apartment fire, destroying all of his clothes, school supplies, and most importantly his streaming gear. He had just met a sexy streamer he knew of as DragonGirl069 and she takes him under her wing. Sarah, DragonGirl069's real name, says she can fix all of Nick's problems by teaching him how to profitably stream. She can pay off his college tuition for the semester, buy him completely new streaming gear, clothes, and even pay his next semester's tuition. Nick, not wanting to drop out of school and burden his father agreed. Nick just didn't realize that Sarah's idea of a profitable streamer included completely feminizing Nick into Princess BabyDoll a sexy flirty e-girl of a streamer.
Characters:
There are two main characters and several other characters that may or may not turn into main characters. First up is Nick. Nick is the very definition of 'one thing leads to another' in his feminization journey. If he's going to accept being a female streamer, why not change his hair and wear makeup. If he's going to accept that, why not change his body and voice. If he's going to accept that, why not legally change his name. If he's going to accept that, why not show off as a ditzy flirty girl online. If he's going to accept that, why not go out on a date with a fellow streamer. A male streamer.
Nick changes his name to Sadie and goes by that name completely. His streamer name is Princess BabyDoll and is based on Sarah in that he plays ditzy and flirty. He's had his long hair styled in a feminine manner and dyed a deep bright pink. He's had his lips plumped. He's gone through medical procedures to reduce his waist, give him breasts, and enhance his hips and ass. He's also taking what he believes to be small doses of female hormones but in fact are massive doses of female hormones and testosterone blockers. He's even agreed to wear a chastity cage and give over his sexual releases to Sarah.
The other main character is obviously Sarah, or DragonGirl069. She's more of a mystery as this is told from the first person perspective of Sadie. What's clear at this point is that she is clearly making a lot of money streaming. She has several expensive streaming set ups, has her own house and car, and can afford the thousands of dollars to makeover Sadie and set her on her streaming adventure. She's dominant and has a history of feminizing men. She's said she really wants to go over the top in feminizing Sadie, not just for the streams but just to push her further and further feminine and offered Sadie and out. Sadie agreed to stay so he's agreed to this ultra feminization.
The sub characters so far are Marley, Louis, and Todd. There are also the stylists, but while I mentioned them several times in the first few chapters, I haven't gone back to them yet.
Marley is Sadie's personal trainer. Sarah hired a trainer to help get Sadie's body more feminine and eventually train her how to move and act in a more feminine manner. As Sadie would be wearing tight exercise clothes and unable to hide her penis, the trainer would need to know Sadie's gender, although Sadie was sold as being a transgender woman without bottom surgery and wanting to be more feminine. Sarah hired Marley thinking she was a woman as that would obviously be more comfortable for Sadie. But Marley is instead a tall, well muscled, black man. And while he's good at his job of training, he's very 'hands on' and uses overtly sexual poses and exercises.
Louis is a fellow streamer that Nick had met once. They meet again after Nick has become Sadie and Louis helps Sadie get more comfortable streaming. That was almost completely online until the most recent chapters where he invited Sadie out to a live public streaming 'date'.
And I've only introduced Todd in one chapter. He's the graduate assistant running Sadie's lab clinical. He had ignored Nick in the previous labs but was very condescending and touchy feely with Sadie. This lab clinical is the one class that Sadie has to attend in person as everything else can be completed online. So, she's going to have to be around Todd every single week for at least the rest of the semester.
I mention these three as I have basic ideas for each. Todd I'm setting up as an obvious bad guy. If there is someone that is going to push Sadie into sex, it's going to be Todd. He'll either find out Sadie is Nick and use that as blackmail (remember, Nick is the one that's enrolled in college!), or just threaten her lab clinical grades. I can't say specifically as I've merely introduced him and have him in my pocket to use as a bad guy. He might never be used again. Louis I'm setting up as a good guy. Not quite as obviously good as Todd is obviously bad, but good none the less. While he's still hands on, he's still more caring of Sadie and wants a relationship. Marley is somewhere in between. I could see him being open and offering to help Sadie be more sexual without pursuing a relationship and I could also see him becoming so sexual in his exercises that it ends up with sex.
The story so far:
Nick had his apartment burned down. Sarah brought him to her house and offered to help him. At first, she didn't share that it involved feminizing him and instead just dangled that she'd fix all his financial problems. After taking him to the hair stylist, it was clear that was the direciton she was going and they had their first heart to heart. She said she could transform him into a female streamer as that was the way to make money and Nick would not only fix his finances, but make enough money to transform himself back and start his streaming career over again as Nick... this time with the knowledge of how to build and keep an audience, and how to transform them into a paying audience.
They decided to legally change his name so that 'Sadie' could sign up for a bank account and all the online services she'd need and not have her identity tied to Nick in any way. On the way back from having her name legally changed to Sadie, Sarah kisses her. They have another heart to heart where Sarah says she's feminized men before and not only enjoys it, she enjoys having a dominant role in the relationship. She's been close before, but no relationship has ever gone that far and she's very attracted to the idea of doing the same to Sadie as he is more or less financially trapped into her clutches. She again offers him the chance to back out, but commits Sadie to submitting to her feminization if she stays on. Sadie, not wanting to see his financial ruin affect his family agrees with one caveat... no change can be permanent.
Sarah dives into the changes, sometimes giving Sadie say in what happens while other times just forcing her to do it. One of the first changes is hair removal. She says Sadie can continue to shave almost her entire body every few days or pick a longer term solution. As Sadie had a bad experience having her eyebrows waxed, she denies that. She only glances over the brochures on other techniques and chooses to have her whole face and body laser hair removed, not realizing that it's a permenant solution. Sadie agrees to physical transformations that can later be reversed including a fat grafting technique that sucks the fat from his mid-section (giving him a tiny waist), and injecting it (as well as some other stuff) into his chest, rear, and hips. This procedure is done above board and professionally and ends up giving Sadie a female shaped body. Her hips and ass are curvy and attractive, her waist is thin and tight, and her breasts are perky if not outright big (I think I left it as a biggish B cup). During the procedure, while Sadie was out, Sarah agreed to one last thing and that was using some of the fat to change Sadie's voice. Like the other procedures it could be reversed, but it ended up giving Sadie a high pitched obviously feminine voice.
Where that procedure is fine, they also decide to give Sadie low doses of female hormones and testosterone blockers. They have to go to a seedy doctor for the prescriptions who is only interested in them paying him up front and getting a cut of the actual prescriptions. They don't realize it yet in what I've written, but I've had it in my head that Sadie will be taking HUGE doses of hormones and testosterone blockers. When they start to suspect they'll be in a pickle as the doc doesn't want anything more to do with them leaving them with the choice of continuing to take them or to stop cold turkey.
At this point Sadie is completely female looking and sounding with only his penis and testicles left unchanged. Sarah starts in on controlling Sadie's sexuality. She wants to direct Sadie's sexual energy into being more feminine so first thing she does is give him a chastity cage. She says the more aroused he is, the more it will go into making her act sexy on camera. She also gives Sadie nightly 'devotionals'. These devotionals are designed to make Sadie see herself in a female sexual role. The first one was watching 15 minutes straight of women sucking off black men. She later explains that because the men were black, Sadie wouldn't see herself in that role and because she was forced to watch it (it would literally pause if she turned away or closed her eyes) she had no mental choice than to associate herself with the female role. Other devotionals included touching herself and playing a game where the character looks like her but is sexually used over and over. She's also being given subconscious/hypnotic suggestions that are occasionally directing her dreams, although she doesn't know that yet and is just assuming these dreams of her being female are from her own mind.
Sarah hired a personal trainer that had to know about Sadie's penis as it would be impossible to hide in the tight exercise clothes. She thought she was hiring a woman as the role involved not only exercising Sadie in their home, but training her how to move, act, and be more feminine. But through a mistake in pronouns, the trainer turns out to be a big, tall, muscular black man. Marley has a very hands on technique and doesn't seem bothered by Sadie's feminine appearance and male genitalia. Sarah is initially upset by this but not only accepts it, she takes advantage of the situation saying Sadie can use it as a time to help flirt with a real person.
Sadie is nervous about streaming as she's still getting used to being seen as a she. Sarah sets her up a practice stream that mistakenly goes live. At the end of the stream, when she thinks its just being recorded for her later review, Sadie goes full on ditzy bimbo and unknowingly introduced Princess BabyDoll to an audience of hundreds that way. The thought of being seen that shakes Sadie even more and to help get over her nerves, they invite Louis in to Sadie's next stream. That way she can 'flirt' with someone she knows and that knows it's an act. It works and soon Sadie is getting more and more comfortable playing the part of Princess BabyDoll online. Louis only asks that Sadie join him in a stream on his channel later that week.
Sadie goes to her first lab hoping to just blend in as she's worried about all her classmates associating Nick not being there, Sadie being there, and seeing that Sadie is in fact Nick. Todd, the GA running the lab does notice her but treats her like a dumb sexy college girl, doing most of the experiment for her and having her simply take down notes, all while touching her quite inappropriately. He even gives her ass a slap on the way out of class.
Sadie agrees to Louis' return stream only realizing at the last minute that he wants to do it in public at a local coffee shop. He even wants her to wear an outfit she'd shown off on a previous stream that is far more sexy than she's comfortable wearing (heels, stockings, mini skirt, tiny tube top). Sadie finally agrees figuring they'll just be sitting in a coffee house with their laptops, gaming together. Sarah takes this opportunity to help Sadie move more feminine by introducing a butt plug. She even offers to wear one herself as long as Sadie is wearing one and giving Sadie a blow job in appreciation.
Sadie goes to the coffee house and is surprised when Louis doesn't even want their computers on as they just chat. It turns out Louis is wearing streamer glasses and is live streaming their 'date'. He'd assumed Sadie knew this would be that kind of stream. When he suggests they go to a movie Sadie has a mini freak out as she'd just had a dream of going on a date to a movie with Louis where she'd put her hand into his pants and grabbed his manhood. Instead she suggests going to a local arcade where they play games against each other and the audience picks tasks for the loser to do. Sadie is embarrassed as any skill she possessed at playing arcade style games seems to be lost in her new feminine body and heels. It also turns out to be an adult bar/arcade so some of the tasks involve alcohol and Sadie gets a little inebriated.
And that's where I've left off as of chapter 34. Now, comparing stories at CHOYA and stories at Fictionmnia isn't apples to apples. At CHYOA people can 'follow' me and are notified whenever I post anything. They can favorite the story and are notified any time anything is added to it. They can even bookmark a chapter and pick up reading at any time. And any time a chapter is added to Gamer Gurl at CHYOA it gets highlighted on the front page, giving more people a chance of finding the story, following me, and bookmarking chapters.
Any time someone reads a chapter, it's considered a read. And you can't merely 'like' a story, you have to 'like' a chapter. That being said, I think this has really good numbers. Gamer Gurl and its 34 chapters has 337 favorites. It has 1030 likes, 103 bookmarks, just over 89,000 views. Obviously those reads aren't meted out evenly as far more people have read the first chapter than the most recent one. But it's still an average of over 2,600 views per chapter. It's even had 54 comments which I take as pretty good interaction.
Now, I've been getting closer and closer to the 'what now' question. So far I've been detailing almost every moment of Sadie's life. She wakes up, has breakfast, exercises with Marley, showers, streams, has lunch, streams, has some kind of interaction, has her devotional, sleeps... start over. But how much more of that do I really need? Sadie is comfortable enough to have mostly good streams now. She's working out with Marley and while not exactly comfortable with it, can endure it. She still thinks of herself as 'Nick' but is comfortable presenting herself as Sadie to Sarah, Louis, Marley, and Todd and is comfortable presenting herself as Princess BabyDoll online.
I think next is going to be more fast forwarding to specific events. I picture a blow back from her date with Louis, so that relationship cools down a bit, but eventually I see another date in their future. I see Sadie realizing that her hair isn't growing back and realizing she'd actually picked a permanent hair removal technique. This would be another freak out as she realizes she'll now not be able to fully return to 'Nick'.
Later, in that same vein, a few months down the road she'll notice her face growing more feminine, her skin growing more soft, and her feminine shape growing curvier, especially her breasts growing. This will be her and Sarah seeing the effects of months of large doses of hormones, but they're at a loss as to what to do. And I'm not sure exactly where this will lead. I know the doc they used will have no interest in talking to them about it. He's perfectly comfortable leaving them in a "Take what I've prescribed and don't talk to me, or don't take what I've prescribed and don't talk to me." They could talk to the doctor that performed the grafting, but that opens up a whole can of worms of them taking illegal prescriptions and possibly risking the doctor as she might be ethically bound to stop the hormones and even reverse their effects. OR she might be ethically bound to have Sadie go into transition counseling as a transgender woman.
So there's that.
I also picture a scene where Sadie looks over the cash she's bringing in. She sees its far more than she thought possible and is happy about it... but as she counts up the money for the procedures, the clothes, the streaming set up, her tuition and school supplies, she sees its not going to be enough. That's when Sarah drops the other shoe, saying that while she hoped Sadie might earn enough from straight streaming that she'd never figured it would be possible. That the only way she's earned as much as she has is by doing half of her online streams as a cam girl. A sex cam girl. That would be another conversation of her inviting Sadie to became a cam girl too. Sadie could either refuse, continue to earn the streaming money and win the bet... but not make enough money for everything she needs... or accept and take the next step by exploring her sexuality in front of a paying audience.
As you can see, I think I've just about reached the natural conclusion to 'Part 1' of Gamer Gurl. It's longer than Just Dance (I'm linking to the first part of Just Dance on Fictionmania... remember it's posted as 8 chapters!) at this point meaning I could post it to Fictionmania in eight or nine chapters. I'd continue on with Gamer Gurl 2, leading her into the cam girl story. I could also set this aside and return to writing You're Not The Boss Of Me.
The problem with You're Not The Boss Of Me is how I've started it. I started writing YNTBOM as a full length long(ish) story. I'd do it like I did Thesis and Just Dance. In other words I'd have a loose outline and write along its lines. As I added new things or wanted to change things, I'd go back and make those changes. And I'd have the intent that at the end of writing, I'd go back over it with a fine toothed comb to make sure it flows from beginning to end.
To that end, I have about 25,000 words written and believe most of that will have a major re-write as it wasn't lining up correctly. I couldn't exactly write this in the CHYOA style. Or at least I couldn't do it with the story I have in mind. When I started Gamer Gurl, I didn't know where it was going and am frankly surprised that its been as cohesive as its turned out to be. But having each part out in public, seeing the readership go up with each chapter, getting that rush with every like and favorite and follow... that inspires me to write. I WANT to continue writing it where continuing YNTBOM feels more like a chore. Yes, a chore that will end up as a very good project, but a chore none the less.
Between caps, tumblr stories, obscuras, and keeping up with posting my back catalogue of caps to twitter, I keep fairly busy creating. Yes, I do this around my migraines but since I'm not working I can do this almost every day. Even when I have a migraine, like today, if it's not too severe I can at least write out a 'first draft' of any of these things. I've gotten good at writing something and picking it up either later that day or even later that week and keeping it going.
Another option I have is to keep YNTBOM on the back burner, finish this first part of Gamer Gurl, and start a new story at CHYOA. I had that time travel idea. A long time ago I had that idea set up like the movie Point of No Return. There's the longer version of Oh The Wicked Webs We Weave that I recently remembered. I could start any of those and just flow with them. Sure, they all have outlines, but I think I could transition to doing them on the fly, especially the time travel experiment.
I don't know. I'm gonna have to think about it. If you have any idea, leaning, or suggestion, don't keep it to yourself!
A final word about writing. I have never considered making money from my femme creative processes. First off, my caps, obscuras, and tumblr posts all involve other people's photos. But even as I got into writing out my own stories, even ones inspired by photos, I didn't have any want to make money from them. Frankly, as a registered nurse and especially as a nurse manager, I made enough money and didn't want the pressure of taking people's money for something that I did as a hobby. If I took money for a completed story, I'd want it to be perfect. None of my writing qualifies as anything near perfect.
But that was while I was working. I'm not working now. I'm fighting to keep up my long term disability, paying for my own insurance, fighting the state for benefits, and blowing threw over 2/3 of my retirement fund, all just to stay afloat.
I'd be lying if I haven't been considering way to monetize this recent creative surge. There's Patreon and other more adult friendly versions of Patreon. Instead of buying a finished product, people would sign up for a monthly fee. Obviously I'd have to give something for that fee, something at least temporarily exclusive. Maybe a one month head start on anything I publish? Maybe a totally exclusive story?
I don't know.
I've tried not to think down that road. I really REALY don't want to ask people to pay me money. If my long term disability kicks back in, I'll have a couple years of 'enough' money. Any money I make during that time period would be taken away from the long term disability so I'm actually discouraged from making any cash. But if they fully deny it and I can't get it back... well, I may be suddenly interested in asking people to pay me money.
I've really been enjoying the story, can't wait to see where it goes!
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